I'm sorry for those having some tough times right now. I'm feeling that any emotion is almost a new feeling to me. I've masked them all for so long I don't know how they really feel. So was I really happy sad mad or did I amplify those feelings being drunk or suppress them? I don't know so dealing with any emotion is tough right now. I don't like to feel attacked or exposed either. My bark is a lot worse than my bite because I tend to run from confrontation. Far as family goes, I know they've seen me at my worst and lowest. Might as well start at the bottom and hopefully work up. It will be just as hard for them to understand why we've gone the things we've gone as it will for us to explain it. Maybe a mediator of some sort can help those dealing with this? Just some thoughts. I certainly don't have it all figured out. Hope it gets better as the day goes on. Thank you God for a chance at another 24!