Raise your hand at your first meeting tell them you're new that you've just accepted that you're an addict and you need help. You'll get numbers and support. Go to a meeting every day, get a sponsor with some time who will keep you accountable. The denial is the hardest part to over come but there are other hurdles too but when you make it to the other side it's all worth it, or so I've been told. I've been trying to get this recovery thing for 6 years but haven't surrendered to the fact that I can't do it alone until now. As they say in every meeting I go to DON'T PICK UP! That's the most important thing and the only thing you have to do perfectly every day.