Hi - I drank like you for many years, high functioning - great job, kids who I THOUGHT didn't know - husband who kinda knew - Guess what happened?
I lost my job because of being drunk on the job, lost my license in a poor attempt at suicide, using vodka - my children are barely speaking to me and being in a small town - I'm now known as one of the town drunks. Please stop now. My life is getting inch by inch better since not drinking and asking for help. Your children, husband and especially YOU deserve better. Keep on the path.