Sadie: good luck with opening up to your therapist. I hope you find comfort in it. I've often had trouble opening up to my therapist as well. It's like even in therapy people don't want to be judged or seen as totally out of control.
Went to dinner with family tonight and everyone drank except for me. I was feeling super proud and then I stopped at the store on my way home. The beer section about brought me to my knees. So far so good, but the doubt is still hanging around.