Well today I woke up full of dread and anxiety. Im so scared for the future. Im jobless and have been for 2 years now. I used to be so independent sometimes holding 3 jobs at a time now I just feel pathetic.
Ive struggled with eating disorders ever since I was 13 years old and now that he's calling me fat I'm petrified to really eat and that's dangerous for my baby. I feel like I'm that insecure chubby kid that my father used to ridicule and make fun of.
I remember the constant fear as a child when my dad was high. My baby needs a good role model in her life or she will make horrible choices just like me.
Thanks for letting me vent