Wow thank you all so much for the non judgement support means so much to me. I don't have many friends either, that's another thing he likes to control.. I have maybe 2 but they have families and I hate to be a burden you know? Yea engaging or fighting is pointless so why bother. He apparently never remembers what we talk about anyway. Tonight I told him that I won't allow our baby to be around him if he drinks and he said of course not, ill quit before you give birth but I don't believe him at all. He's been saying he will or wants to quit for 2 years now.
I will call that number tomorrow though and see what my options are. I couldn't even stand it when he kissed me? Its like he is delusional to what's really going on. He comes from a long line of alcoholics and he's got a short temper. He thinks because he doesn't hit me and pays the bills he's a wonderful husband. If I tell him my stomach hurts or I feel sick he alwaysh has to say his back hurts and he worked all day..