Day 17 for me. I too am an ex-smoker of 8 years now. I know I have a compulsive behavior so I think I replaced smoking with drinking. Now I got to stop drinking and NOT replace this with another bad habit.
I have a habit of not letting myself feel things too. Since I was young my life has been dysfunctional so I learned well how to guard myself to not let unwanted things in.
Btw, at what point do we make amends? How do we know when the time is right? I am not ok with a lot of people in my life right now. A lot of the people I have in my life are active drinkers and I believe not all our problems were 100% my fault. Probably showing how early I am in my recovery by saying that but I can't help that I feel this way. Help.