Aceofspades! You are human! We aren't perfect machines programmed to do the same thing over and over! We are humans in all different walks of life! You made a mistake by going back to using! Yes we beat ourselves up when that happens! And we ask ourselves why why why did I do that?
If that's the question? Then why did we let ourselves get so hooked in the first place? There's always questions!
But the good thing is? There's always a way out of the using. We just have to STOP putting the drugs in our bodies! Once we take that action? Then our lives start to turn around for the better! It might take some longer to feel better than others. Remember? We are all different!
Congrat's on your clean time and congrat's on your new baby boy!
TOD