Hi guys, it feels like it's been a long time!
Mini-update and very strange feeling update.
My mum would have turned 5 last tuesday. It's still strange and hard to believe at times. I miss her. I still am not feeling a lot, but it comes and goes, and I'm less hung up on that aspect.
What's really weird is that I just found my sister in an eerily similar position as I have had to deal with my mum. It's actually really weirding me out.
My sister can party pretty hard. I got up early to go on a trip this weekend, and I found my sister, who I heard get back a little while ago, passed out, slumped over on the toilet. I have had to deal with this with my mum before. It was like double vision.
So I woke her up, with difficulty, and convinced her to get moving up to bed. As she proceeded to accidentally tuck some toilet paper into her shorts.
Yikes.
Now I know I need to do the work not to feel responsible, or to flip out about it. It's just. Really. Flashback-y. I've done that before. I've had to do that for my mother. Ans when I phrase it like that? I start to realize what I've gone though.