Thanks, Venecia. I truly appreciate everything you feel and do for me, to make me more comfortable.
The reference to the video I linked and the therapy session though... I had a relapse for the eating disorder thing last weekend. An ugly binge-purge episode I have not had for 15 years. THIS IS NOT GOOD. Why, well on its own... but also because my eating disorder gave rise to my alcoholism in the past. I think I really need to shield, armor, or whatever way protect myself or act, from this chain going further.
What do you guys and gals recommend?