I am still so sad, guys. It's off and on, and sometimes when the environment or even much more subtle cues remind me of my dad and the whole galactic complex of our relationship (analyzing this in therapy), all my strength and resourcefulness hits the "nihil" button. I am very familiar with feeling this, and yet it's so hard to experience it again.
Doing okay in practical departments though: just submitted the grant application that was on my neck, things go quite well with my (current) difficult student, I've spent most of the day revising a research paper, and now I will go out to walk and then want to do some yoga in the evening with some relaxing music.
I also had a very intense therapy session today. The attached video was selected to kind of transmit that feeling... And
this is what can't leave my mind. But for now, out to walk
