Welcome Healthy , Great job raising your son alone
As you can see by my username - I fell into that trap too . After 10 + years of drinking heavier & heavier my body almost gave up on me . I couldn't feel the affects , because the alcohol numbed it . When hit me it hit Hard . It will creep up on you & only get worse if you keep going .
You found a Good place to work on getting Sober . Read posts & find treads they will help you understand more of what alcohol can do the longer you keep in it . Best of Luck to You . Even though your son is grown he still needs a Dad in his life . After I couldn't control my drinking , they seen me too many times that way . I've lost the closeness - they have pushed me aside . Even with 2 years sober . The damage is done
