No, that's fine. I don't mind at all. Very aware, but I don't think he knows how to be supportive really. It's just not in him to say anything at all when I fall off the wagon, no matter how many times I've asked him to keep the issue alive and help me. He's very supportive in the sense that he's happy for me (and himself) when I'm not drinking, but can't kind of 'put anything into the equation' if that makes any sense. That's fine, needless to say I'm aware it's my problem and not his responsibility. I don't like the term enabler, it sounds mean-spirited to me. Co-dependent is probably a more apt term. I think the bottom line is he just doesn't want to hurt me when I'm so often filled with self-loathing already. Of course, this only makes things worse, and so on, and so on.....
I have the kind of support that was missing here now. I'm hoping that's going to make the difference.
Thanks for asking :-)