Hey Ruby ,
Hang tough
you know that your brain is spinning a delusion not reality …
In reality the only thing it would give is a hot mess and throw things into chaos , it is a neurotoxin with good advertising .
pop that delusional dream bubble … Maybe imagine yourself by the pool after or during one of your worst binges with all your family there to see ..
Change the scene in your head , pick up a good book ? go sit in the shade a bit , check you're hydrated , HALT !
keep on
m