Self-esteem ... Interesting (I think) footnote. Self-esteem became such a huge thing which directly and indirectly led to kids being heaped with praise for anything and everything. In my IOP, they talked about that and suggested that the term "self-compassion" more accurately reflects both what was perhaps intended (and is also much more helpful in the context of addiction).
Gilmer, it may take awhile to process everything that has happened in your life recently. Be kind to yourself and feel free to vent as needed!
Marcher, good to hear that it's been warmer for you. And yes, I agree that we have created a monster!