ArtFriend, I've been down the road your on many times, but it always led me back to heavy drinking. I would switch to something I don't usually drink, and do fine for maybe a few weeks, but eventually something happens, and I'm back to picking up bottles of vodka. I don't know why this happens, but it always does. Of course, everybody is different so maybe your situation will have different results. Just be real careful. That switch in your head can turn on in a heartbeat. Best not to play with it IMHO. John