Hi art friend. Long time since we spoke onhere...
You saw from my own thread earlier today that i too have been drinking... So there's no judgement of you here from me.
I am coming though to the belief that if we spend time considering/planning what drink we might or might not switch to, or how we can make it span over a longer time, etc...this very preoccupation signals (to me anyway) that I have a problem with alcohol. Full stop. It feels to me a great whopping clue....
From my own introspection lately about drinking, i'm learning that whatever planning i do, whatever talking about it that i engage in - related to alcohol, the real job for me is to learn to handle differently those moments where the inevitable 'tug' to drink arises - that longing for the alcohol that can come from the very depths of yourself.
I am still struggling with this myself...but offer you something of my own growing insight only in hope it may help. LB