Your comments Kaifly completely reflected my thoughts today before I went to the bottle shop. This was only two hours ago. I told myself the following...
a/ you're only a few days away from 5 weeks.
b/ you can't just have 'one drink'.
c/ you'll regret it.
d/ you'll self-depreciate.
Upon returning to the farm, I finished off the booze (a modest quantify by my standards). Felt inspired, and free.
What I'm wondering is this...
By pursuing this path of sobriety, am I condemned to a life without inspiration, subject to a dull existence that forever reflects back on 'happier times' (with or without alcohol).
In other words, is "Life a bitch and then You die"?
Or is there a real light at the end of the tunnel?
B