Don't overload yourself with worry right now Free. I'm 42 and spent all of my professional career drinking heavily. That in itself didn't do me ANY favors. Lost my job at 39 (not due to drinking), had over $400,000 in unsecured debt, no savings, and a family that was counting on me. Today we are great. I continue to take it one day at a time... but one thing I know is as long as I don't drink I'm giving myself the best chance at success I can.
You can do this!
The single most important thing you can do for yourself right now is not drink. For an alcoholic, drinking just f***s up everything in life.
The other stuff will come, just give yourself the best shot at a good and happy life as you can.
Congrats on 10 days, that's awesome!