I really wanted to get drunk.. I didn't
I stuffed up at work. Nothing major really, but my bosses are feeling red faced and worried about impact on them.
It started to play on my mind and I left the house to get 2 bottles of wine and a bottle of vodka.
I drove and parked up. I convinced myself to drive home again. I got halfway home and I turned around, drive back to bottle shop and parked up.
I got out of the car and stood beside it in the pouring rain. I got back in the car. Sat there. Read some of my posts and let a big sigh and drove home. All the way home this time.
It occurred to me that I was acting like a crazy person and really best thing was to go home and sleep on it. Closest call in a long time.
I didn't just want a drink I wanted total annihilation. I think that's what makes me a problem drinker.