Hey Aellyce/Haennie - One thing I have noticed in your postings is that you really retreat into your intellect when things are hard. It's as though experiencing feelings (not talking about them) is so very painful, you must analyze and intellectualize. I totally get that. I am glad you are here posting about it because you are getting feedback on a level that you need. I wish I had known about SR when my mom died. I would have lived on this thing! For those of us who cannot process emotions well, SR provides a great outlet.
Take care of yourself OK??