Sorry Dennis you have to wait, ive had to wait months for my therapy apt i suffer with anxiety & depression the important thing is your here and your doing this for you
Its better than nothing at all as you know you'l eventually get seen, in the meantime stick close to SR ... why not participate in more threads to lessen the suicidal thoughts & take full use of this link
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ease-read.html
I remember when i first met you we spoke of the books Rashomon & hagakure i was waiting on mine being delivered & you were telling me you had read hagakure
So
How about a new book ? start writing a daily journal & gratitude lists for what you do have anything that will help i suggest you use & that includes if you ever want to talk just send me a msg Dennis spk soon friend