Thank you everyone, I have been so involved in him during the 3 years of our relationship trying to make sure he was ok, he went to work, he made his appointments, he didn't sleep on the floor after drinking all day, covering up for him after he's missed yet another family event, making excuses for him not being around or why is he "acting like that is he drinking" that I have no clue how to be hands off but I'm going to try. I've been doing my own therapy and have attended alanon meetings and I know in time I will be able to let go of all the ********. I love him with all my heart but I can't let his drinking rule my life anymore. I want to be positive but I don't want to give all my hope in this because I know it's such a 50/50 chance.