It sounds stressful.....I hope you find your way and with it peace. Thanks for posting this stratman......I see a lot of similarities between all of us commenting here....and it's giving me peace.....I struggled to go no contact w my brothers....I felt like I was weak to do that.....that I wouldn't stand there and fight them any longer.... Like I lost. It's not true. I am responsible for myself and my happiness and no ones allowed to interfer w my life. If they don't support me....they must go.