Forgiving myself was the hardest thing in the world for me to do, I didn't deserve to be forgiven. But then after talking to my father and reading endless hours on this site, it changed my mind. I believe its imperative to forgive, but don't forget. Learn and move on. The two months was certainly not a waste. The number of days is just that, a number. Isn't the ultimate goal to have a better life in the long run. A life that alcohol does not ruin. Keep your chin up boss, you can do this.