"I feel like a freak", I'm sorry, that's not funny, but it did make me laugh. You're not a freak, an alcoholic, maybe. Definitely not a freak. Haven't heard that before. I like to keep things simple, you had a craving/trigger. You fought it and won, so a pat on the back for you. I would simply take this as a learning experience. And a rather simple one, "Non-alcoholic wine? Nope. Done.