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Old 06-26-2015, 02:38 PM
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Non alcoholic wine triggered me.

At moms nursing home they had a "wine" and cheese party. We each had a glass of non alcoholic wine. And now, I'm having the worse cravings I have had in months.

Not. Worth. It.
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Old 06-26-2015, 02:41 PM
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Yeah, I think it's best to stay away from that.
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Old 06-26-2015, 02:42 PM
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I wonder if simply the idea of alcohol "lights up" the brain receptors involved in addiction? When I was on the edge, hearing about alcohol could send me over the edge. Not anymore, but it happened in the past.
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Old 06-26-2015, 02:43 PM
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Hang on AO. Anything that "sets the stage" can trigger. I had to throw away the jar I used to drink my whiskey cokes out of. For me there was a type of ritual associated with drinking.
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Old 06-26-2015, 02:45 PM
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Ah yes - and I got rid of wine glasses, corkscrews, etc. symbolic but it felt like drawing a line in the sand. Good quotes!
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Old 06-26-2015, 02:53 PM
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If it looks like it shaped like it bubbles like it remotely smells like it then no way
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Old 06-26-2015, 02:55 PM
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Strange. Wine glasses I'm ok with. But boy oh boy, I just shoved down a Snickers bar to try to abate these urges.

Quite surprised really.
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Old 06-26-2015, 03:07 PM
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This too shall pass, alpha! Super congrats for posting instead of drinking!

This craving will go away, it really will. I stupidly accepted a champagne toast a year and a half in. They were toasting us, I felt like I had no choice. You always have a choice, I've learned.

I took only a ceremonial sip (I dislike champagne so thought it wouldn't be a problem), and the obsession came rolling back . It was prayer and whiteknuckles for the rest of the night, but stayed sober.

You can do it girl! Then add fake wine to your list of no nos
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Old 06-26-2015, 03:08 PM
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Thanks for this. I diving deep into figuring out my triggers and this conversation helped. I drank my wine out of a specific plastic cup. (Gross, I know)! Time to throw it out.
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Old 06-26-2015, 03:14 PM
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It was never so much the alcohol or lack of it in NA stuff that got me - it was the associations and rituals - the behaviours - that made me salivate.

I'm glad you got through it AO - and it does get better, I promise.

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Old 06-26-2015, 03:17 PM
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I know a lady who has been trying to get sober for eight years. Goes to AA, does all the stuff they tell you to do in AA, but she always has a non-alcohol beer at events - even AA events.

She isn't able to hold on to her sobriety for more than a few months at a time.

I don't know if that is part of the reason or not, but why even drink the stuff? I mean, I did it for the buzz.
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Faker, I did the same thing as you. I drank boxed rotgut wine from a huge plastic cup. Ugh! I tossed it in the garbage.
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Old 06-26-2015, 03:21 PM
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Crazy enough, I even "feel" like I drank. Like when I would drink a glass and try to stop. And the buzz would wear down., and my head would be fuzzy and heavy. Maybe even a palpitation or two.

This is really so unbelievable.

I'm honestly shocked.
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Old 06-26-2015, 03:27 PM
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Maybe that wasn't NA wine? Did you see the bottle?
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Old 06-26-2015, 03:36 PM
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I did. It was. And I opened the bottle. Never got a buzz. I don't think (?)

I feel like a freak.
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Old 06-26-2015, 03:56 PM
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"I feel like a freak", I'm sorry, that's not funny, but it did make me laugh. You're not a freak, an alcoholic, maybe. Definitely not a freak. Haven't heard that before. I like to keep things simple, you had a craving/trigger. You fought it and won, so a pat on the back for you. I would simply take this as a learning experience. And a rather simple one, "Non-alcoholic wine? Nope. Done.
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Old 06-26-2015, 04:01 PM
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My AV is actually in overdrive hinting at "Well you already blew it so might as well keep going."

I was supposed to go painting tonight at one of those places that you can drink and paint at. I've painted 6 times since I've been sober and was fine. Fine.

I think I'm going to cancel and go take a bath.

What a ride.
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Old 06-26-2015, 04:02 PM
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Well, the brain is very powerful. You did the ritual of viewing the bottle, opening the bottle, pouring the wine, drinking the wine. Hell, it's even called "wine."

After all you've been through, that is a traumatic thing to have to relive. A lot of control issues at play.

I agree, I wouldn't try that again - especially since you were recently romanticizing Chardonnay.

edit to say, yeah, the painting tonight is probably not a good idea. Good call!!
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Drinking beer and wine NA or not is part of my old life not part of my new
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Old 06-26-2015, 04:22 PM
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What makes you a freak makes the rest of us freaks too I guess AO.
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my advice is don't overthink this - you learned a lesson, you got out alive - shut that AV down and move on

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