Originally Posted by IfYouCanDream

Thank you all so much. You have no idea how much it means to me today to receive all this support. I'm feeling so low and worthless today and having someone who understands means the world to me. Thank you SR community. I'd be lost without you. I contacted my sponsor to tell her I had a bad craving but fought through it (that's what I thought at that moment). When the craving came back on with double force I felt like my body wasn't my body. I had known to come here or call for help but when that craving came on it didn't even cross my mind. Some terrible darkness took over and it just happened. Today I'm dismayed - it's so easy to f*** up! Very sober. You couldn't pay me enough to take a drink today. The emptiness I felt with that wine glass in my hand is impossible to describe. How easily can one forget over the course of several months... I'll remember better this time.