It's okay to feel however you are feeling. If you do decide to go and you cry, it's not a bad thing. You and your Dad probably could both use a good cry, you know? Emotions are given to us for a reason.
I was a big crier in early sobriety - like literally every day. Now I haven't cried in months and months - probably a whole year.
It gets better, but the emotions had to come out eventually or I would have imploded.