Musings from my first week...
I can't say that I've gone a whole week without a drink. I have not, and have already been told that this means I don't really "want" to get sober... I really do actually... And I'm doing my best. I have, though, gone a week having tapered down to one drink a day to avoid withdrawal - having gone three days throughout this week without any drink at all... It's the best I've done in years... Yesterday was the first day in over a decade I went an entire day without a panic attack. I was so scared that tapering off alcohol would cause more panic, but I feel my anxiety starting to subside.... I feel my head starting to clear and I wonder if I really might have a future (maybe even a life with a husband and a family one day!).... It's terrifying and amazing at the same time... Next week my goal is four days sober and the week after... Five.... Fingers crossed!!!