Lycanlaz, I read each post in this thread twice. Wow, just frickin wow. These folks have it figured out and have offered some incredible words of wisdom. I don't really suffer anxiety, but I have at times and I know its horrible. You are progressing and I sense a strong desire from you that you are dead serious about getting things straightened out. Keep marching forward to overcome the alcoholism and anxiety. You can...and you will. We have faith. Thumbs up and a wink to you. You are doing great.