Rush, huh? If you choose not to decide you still have made a choice. Free Will. That one always sticks in my head. Former husband was a huge Rush fan.
Casey, you sound really good. I primarily use SR for support but do attend AA meetings. I've met two women who provide face to face support.
Speaking of support, just thinking of you all makes me calmer about the party. I'm making a list. The house will be clean. I'll pull it off. I always do. I won't be as fancy with the food this year but it'll work out. Even when I was drinking I managed all but one birthday which we had at an alternate location. Birthdays are important.