Originally Posted by
Shalaylay 
Thank you and reading this I'm crying. I'm trying to forgive myself but the utter disgust that I feel is hard to ignore. I feel like I am completely alone and I don't know what to do.
I know but inside there is a decent good person thats being held down by these feelings. You cant deny these feelings but they are also not doing you any favors because they fuel the cycle that isnt a good one.