Hey man. I've felt the same way at meetings. Being alone in a group of people. At about 2 or 3 months I was really struggling with that. And there was one guy that always chaired the same meeting that I just didn't jive with. I almost quit. Thankfully I dug in at that point. I found two meetings weekly that I liked and stuck with those. I worked the steps with a good sponsor. I've almost got a year now and things are really good. And that guy I couldn't stand that I thought hated me. Well it turns out we are just alike. The problem was he is just as socially awkward as I am. I still don't feel like I fit in much but in ok with that now. I see things differently than I used to. There is hope but you have to work hard and be stubborn. Don't give up!