That is really morose - understandable, since that's what alcohol makes us believe.
Sad, though.
I have no family and the friends I do have are drinkers, so I can't really rely on them for sobriety support. I have no significant other. I don't drink. There are times I think about it - but I don't want to go back to that sad place in my mind that alcohol takes me. It really causes nothing but darkness and a loneliness that cannot be cured in a room full of people.
I do think this site can help you if you let it...let us.
Get out of your own head and do something to change your situation. Yes. You have to save your own life. We all do.