You already know what to do
Go back and read your posts or read other peoples posts - there's
no answers back the way you came - you know where that road leads.
At least in recovery you have the promise of better times ahead, you know?
That voice telling you you don't care and noone else cares is your AV. Your Addictive Voice
It lies. It doesn't care about your well being.
the best way to stop it tormenting you is not to feed it. Starve it out.
please - dump the stuff, KT.
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