I missed this line from your post the first time I read it:
Originally Posted by
Cissy 
I like to ride the line that resides in between having none and having too much.
I like to ride that line too. Unfortunately I'm an alcoholic so once I take that first drink I never know if I'm "only" going to have one or two more drinks (most nights) or if I'm going to drink everything in sight and then think I need to go out for more (happened way too often to just dismiss as anomalies.)
And I have to think you wouldn't have searched out this message board and then gone to the trouble of joining and then contributing to it hundreds of times if you didn't also have trouble riding that same line.
Once again, I hope your change your mind. I'm worried about you and will miss you.