The night passed pleasantly and uneventfully enough.The next day, I was wracked with anxiety and panic- something that my drinking had progressed to over the last couple of years. I went fishing. Out of nowhere a feeling of doom and impending death hit. I'd been having such attacks- debilitating ones- for some time. Super high blood pressure, health anxieties about drinking (which drinking relieved temporarily), etc.
I was starting to pay the fiddler with my drinking, which had been daily and steady for 15 years. Drinking had made me lose my focus in life.
Found SR that night and haven't looked back