I can be a force to be reckoned with but this alcohol thing? It showed me in no uncertain terms that I am not the one running the show.
That's the irrational bit, if I thought for even a second I might be in control of his drinking, I probably would be hurrying things along. As it is I know I'm not and it's my own impatience causing me discomfort.
How do you grow patience? I'm good at taking 'switched off' time for me, great at putting my feet up for an hour or two, because that's what I want for that time. My problem is when I have to wait for something - when I want to get to the next stage but am being held up.
It bugs the hell out of me knowing this feeling comes from inside and really doesn't serve any purpose.