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For me work is often where I first get to practice my new skills that I am learning in recovery.
That has often been hard, and challenging, and it often meant dropping the "perfect" employee role.
Eventually with one job it has meant leaving as the situation was becoming toxic to my recovery and my life. For me that was a huge step and spoke of my recovery....not in opposition to it.
I think it is great that you are observing this in yourself....I believe more will be revealed and you will get the chance to make some great changes.