Just an fyi, pills have never been my thing. I appreciate everyone's concern but I highly doubt I will getting hooked on pain meds. I have pondering what my life will be like when this chapter is behind me. I don't know the answer right now but i,am confident it will be different. My relationship with alcohol may very well end. It may not. At this point I belive I will have a greater appreciation for life...and freedom. Alcohol provides neither. I know that I will not have any alcohol for three months and maybe that will propel me to total abstinence. H ope everyone is having a good weekend.