Jane:
If something makes you feel bad then perhaps you shouldn't do it. If your feeling shame....and I can relate to that....God knows I was out of my mind when I drank and very loosely holding down the fort sober.......don't talk about it to her.....maybe write it down in a journal to release it...... Focus on positive stuff.....maybe she's not the sponsor for you.......you have to try differents things to find out what's right for you. Soberity is an adventure!