I can relate to the shame in admitting stuff to my sponsor. Bc of my upbringing there are still certain things I feel "bad" about doing-even tho my sponsors never shamed me for any of them . I've done the same thing with therapisys, wanting to withhold information From them .
comparing myself to others in recovery was always harmful - they say if you want to compare your self to anybody compare yourself to "the old" you and where you used to mbe.