Ok, Cindy, I have been thinking about this more and if I were in your shoes, I would be honest with awesome AA guy, telling him about everything you love about him and that you were afraid to be honest with him about still wanting to date others because you don't want to lose him, but you aren't a dishonest "have my cake and eat it, too" kind of a gal. I would date myself into oblivion these next couple of years and totally get it out of my system, so that I reached a point of desperately wanting to settle down with that one, awesome, dependable great guy. Believe it or not, there is more than one of those guys floating around and even if this current guy is THAT guy, the Universe will make sure that you find each other once again. I am just saying that if I went through the nightmare of divorce, I would savor this time to really find myself and really figure out what I want before getting committed again.