right now you are like a baby in a bathtub full of gasoline playing with a lighter.....without SOME type of OUTSIDE intervention, things are like to explode on you.
even tho you bf almost DIED, look how quickly your view on using changed:
We vowed to get clean. Never again will we do any sort of opiate.
Then only two days later we vowed never to touch dirty drugs again...only weed and pills...Well its now the end of May and we have been doing 4 to 5 30s every day again since the OD...Thankfully we never touched dope again, although these pills are ruining my life just as much.
first, no more EVER. then within 48 hours you have rationalized to ONLY using weed and pills. and now its casually referenced as the OD - as if it was an event. and this is exactly why your chances of successfully managing ANY amount of drugs is virtually nil. add that there are two of you, both very active in your addictions, to the point where loss of jobs, homes and life are not enough to slow you down...and you both NEED HELP. in fact it is quite possible that you will need to separate in order to stand half a chance. you may not want to hear that, but you guys are killing yourselves and killing each other.
help IS available. tons of it. i hope you make an honest effort to seek it out.