Coming off opiates Is hard no 2 ways about it, I had a subs, pandadene 40 and Valium for a week was grim - but I find the knowing your coming off your body braces itself like something gonna smash it. I honestly think the prospect is worse than the reality. The prospect is terrifying.
If you loving it being high doesn't sound to me like you ready to stop - we all have to hit our own rock bottom to stop - I did - after kidding myself over and over again before. Normally when I high like that - wackoed I'd be ranting to pals about my latest masterplam to get clean etc.