(((ArtFriend)))
So sorry about the horrible flooding, destruction, and loss of life happening in Houston. It saddens me you feel alone. I know drinking can all to often seem to offer a reasonable choice to ease our pains. I've in the past also drank to make "it all go away" too. Of course, nothing goes away, and things go from bad to worse.
I have every hope you will quit again asap. And I hope you can discover a strategy to not feel so alone. No upside to feeling bad about being alone. Reaching out is not easy, but very doable, even when it seems really tough to do so, at those times is when its actually the most important times to reach out.
You are in my thoughts and prayers ArtFriend.