I can relate to your feelings about AA. I've posted before that I've had a love/hate relationship with AA. I too feel it can be cliquey and when I've tried to connect in a new meeting, the "regulars" are not always very welcoming. I also understand that helping out is a big thing... making coffee, setting up chairs, and all of that. I have won some friends by bringing cookies to meetings. But being the introvert I am, I do find it diffiult and I don't think it should be. I've been scared away many times. Walked in, walked out. However, I still go to certain meetings but I'm very hesitant to try new ones.