I hope it's not "grim stuff". I see that what you are experiencing now is an " In between" kind of place, as am I. Business as usual, but nothing is usual, yet you're not on your death bed. The people sending notes and such has slowed down, but cancer is still in the room with us everyday.
I am confident that we will feel more brave and more "like living" soon enough. I think to some extent, we are still reeling from the initial news and all of its implications.
I will be there with you-every step of the way.