Hi Abergirl,
The main thing is to not drink today. I'm not an AA person, but I know it works well for many people. There are lots of books that are really helpful. My favorite is "The Seat of the Soul" by Gary Zukav, which helped me to understand the reasons why I was an addict. "The Dance of Wounded Souls" by Robert Burney has been really helpful in showing me how to move forward spiritually and to begin to forgive myself and love myself. Do whatever you can do and need to do to stop drinking. It will be so worth it.
Love, Anna